rain

today as i was driving to work, it was, gasp, raining. i had the windshield wipers on the lowest setting because... well... i just don't give a fuck anymore. it was weird to me to see, the second before the wipers would, well, wipe, that the view from my windshield looked exactly as it would if i were driving without contacts in. and then i realized something. im not sure what i realized. it was more like a feeling. like not caring if i had my contacts in or if i could see while driving. it felt like giving up.

getting married young

a lot of the people i knew from high school (but wasn't really friends with) have gotten married in the past three years. this makes me wonder, if they were virgins and waiting til marraige to have sex. why else would you want to rush into something like that at such a young age? but i guess these people aren't swimming in commitment issues like myself. either way, still doesn't make sense. i didn't even know waiting for marraige was still a thing, until i went to college and met tons of people who were actually waiting (wtf?). i wish i was friends with these people, so i would have known if they were waiting or not. or that it wasn't rude to message them and ask them. "hey this is for a social research project." someone get on that for me plz.


and now for a question. what is worse: getting married young so you can have sex, or staying a virgin so you don't have to get married?

See-Through Tops

I'm not gonna lie. I love see-through shirts and dresses. Especially when women don't wear bras with them. And here's how I feel about them : when done the right way, they're classy and sophisticated. If you have to point out that someone's shirt is see-through and you can see their nipples, you are just pointing out how classless you really are. Someone who is truely refined will pretend not to notice. But of course everyone notices. THAT'S THE POINT.

im such an emo

my emo-treehugging self thinks this all the time. but im happy im alive.


http://www.asofterworld.com/index.php?id=494

disappointment

i kind of surprised myself at how easily i got over this whole disappointment issue. good job me!